2015. Bring It!

I logged in and noticed that I have not written anything since I was 22 weeks pregnant. She is now 2 years old. My miracle baby. My red-headed spitfire. My monkey. As any mom knows, words can't express what she means to me. We tried so hard and waited so long for her. But I digress from what I was intending to jot down.

I look forward to 2015. It is a fresh start for me. It has been a trying year. Nothing too terrible, just growing pains I think.

2014 Highlights.
I signed up for the Susan G Komen 3 Day in February. I hit the ground running with fundraising and met my goal by summer. Then I helped the rest of the team meet their goal (I needed someone to walk with me!). I had a blast and grew closer to a couple girls who now hold a special place in my heart. They were there for me and I will get to that.

As an adult, I still struggle with feeling left out of cliques. So I decided to quit trying to join those cliques. I had my feelings hurt repeatedly (and to be honest, I still get them hurt) over the past year. This fall I quit caring as much and actually focused on the amazing friends and folks that I surround myself with. Jeff and I started having friends over for dinner and we got to know some awesome people better. I am still getting to know them and count myself very lucky to have crossed paths with them. I also know it is not luck, God put those people in my world. He knew I needed people with my values and gave me some!

We FINALLY moved out of the cabana into our own house on Mother's Day weekend!! We planned that terribly since nobody could help us but I could NOT wait any longer. We are still not done getting settled and have zero plants or bushes but I LOVE MY HOUSE. I love living here and knowing that I will die here. (well, maybe not inside the house but it's mine forever). We survived living in the tiny one room cabana!

Maggie Lynn turned 2. It's amazing watching her grow and learn more every day. Sometimes she shocks me with what she understands and can do.

We got pregnant. Not many people know that. It happened all on it's own which was a huge shock since we were told it could not happen. The timing was terrible - we found out the week before the 3 Day event. That meant I still did the event but I took it easy on myself. I only ended up walking 13ish miles a day. On Day 3, I started bleeding and spent that day in the hospital, missing the Closing Ceremony. By Tuesday of the following week, I had a miscarriage. It was a very tough week but I am also at peace and know that it will happen if it is meant to and definitely in God's timing. He definitely taught me that through all of this. I debated even mentioning it but if it helps someone else who is struggling, I want to put it out there. I think our entire infertility struggle needs to be out there to help others who are also struggling.

Jeff and I both turned 37. How in the world are we both that old? I swear I am still 25 until I do the math.

I look forward to 2015. There are things I want to do and aspects of my life I want to strengthen and grow. I am unbelievably lucky to have some folks willing to walk through all of that with me as well! I don't usually do resolutions but I did write some down for myself this year. I want to remember them as much as possible.

My 2015 Resolutions

Be Awesome
Do Good
Daily Devotional
Be More Present
Focus on Friendships
Run 3 5Ks
Read 3 non-fiction books (starting with Daniel Plan)
Finish Dissertation
Comment more, like less
Be kick butt life group co-coordinator