Day Ten: One confession

Day Ten: One confession

1. I still worry about what people think, even though I don't want to.

Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.

Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.

1. Snuggling with Poopers
2. Christmas is coming!

Day Eight: Three turn ons.

Day Eight: Three turn ons.

1. Sense of humor
2. Caressing my face
3. Kisses

Day Seven: Four turn offs.

Day Seven: Four turn offs.

1. Bad teeth
2. Flip flops on guys
3. Disrespect
4. Conceit

Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)

Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)

1. My parents
2. My nephew
3. Jeff
4. My old youth pastor, Brian
5. Poopers

The begining

Almost 2 years ago Jeff and I started trying to have a baby. We weren't super serious about it. We just thought it would happen when it was supposed to happen. It didn't. It didn't happen for a year.
In May we started getting serious about it. We tracked days, we used the sticks. I watched other people get pregnant. I have seen their bellies grow. I'm excited for them but sad at the same time. I have dealt with the question at the showers "when is it your turn". I don't know how to answer that. I don't want to answer that. I dread that question.
So I went to my doctor. She did some bloodwork. We ran some tests. I even had a test called a hysterosalpingogram. That is more than a little pressure - which is what they told me. They put a catheter in your uterus and shoot a die up there to see if the tubes are working. It HURT.
My tubes are A-Ok. She did determine that I may not ovulate every month. So I get to take clomid, or something like it, once Jeff got tested as well.
Jeff went to the dr too. He is now on a month of antibiotics! It looks like he has an infection. The doctor is hoping the antibiotics will hopefully make everything ok and then we can start the clomid.
We also went to the Buckner Adoption Agency. They had an information meeting the other night. Jeff and I talked it over. We are going to wait to see what the antibiotics do and then see what happens.

Blog gift exchange

I just signed up to do an online gift exchange :)


With work and school, I haven't had time to get into the holiday spirit. I hope this will help!

Feel free to click on the button on the side and sign up - should be lots of fun!!

Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.

Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.

1. Dated B
2. Stayed so shy
3. Thrown up
4. Quit softball as a kid
5. Wasted so much money
6. Fought with him so much

Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.

Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.

1. I need a nap
2. I want a baby
3. I want to cuddle with Poopers
4. Dr.Pepper
5. What fun can we do
6. Where is my to-do list
7. What is due this week

Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.

Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.

1. Bring me starbucks
2. Make me laugh
3. Hold my hand
4. Humor me when I get a little crazy
5. Settle me when I get too crazy
6. Love my animals
7. Love my family
8. Remember things I talk about and reference/use them later

Day Two: Nine things about yourself.

Day Two: Nine things about yourself.

1. I can't small talk. I'm too shy and can't think of things to talk about. I hate mingling parties because of it.
2. I love when people ask me to do things. I try everything in my power to accept because I don't want to stop being invited.
3. I doubt myself when I am in class.
4. I am good at my job. I am efficient and fast and I continue looking for ideas to help the kids.
5. I want a baby so bad it sometimes hurts.
6. Anything romantic makes me cry.
7. I gave up Dr.Pepper and caffeine in August and I still crave them.
8. I can't wait to build our own house.
9. I love eating out.
10. I cannot wait for Christmas!

Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.

Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.

I stole this 10 days of blogs from another blogger. I wish I could remember who!!

1. I hate that things changed
2. I miss you
3. I am lucky to have you
4. I'm proud of who you've become
5. When you leave me out, it hurts me
6. Please consider me, I would do a great job
7. Sometimes I don't know how to deal with you
8. I wish we were closer
9. You aren't as great as you think you are
10. I'm so thankful for you

Swing shift

As you know, Jeff works nights. He usually doesn't come home until 2 or 3 in the morning. I don't see him until the weekends. I do realize some people have it worse than this but I miss him. I want to go out to eat with him on a school night. I want to come home after a bad day and get a hug or a back rub.
Well.....
He is moving to swing shift in December!!! I am pretty excited. I worry how it will affect his sleep patterns or what will happen if we have babies, but I love that I will see him more. He will do 2 weeks on days, 2 weeks on mid shift, and 2 weeks on nights. Then he will start over. I can't wait!! 1/3 of our time we will be living a normal routine :) I'm counting down the days.

My feelers

I've talked about my feelings before. I do realize I am more sensitive than others. I take things personally that I probably shouldn't. (sometimes I should!)
I like doing nice things for people. I don't mind not getting recognized for it or anything. What bothers me is when someone does the same thing as me and does get recognized for it and I still don't. That is when it kinda bothers me. It shouldn't. I should still be doing it for non-selfish reasons. Is that the green eyed monster coming out? I'm sure it is. He's been rearing his ugly head a lot more lately.
That's another reason I am working on this blog again. To sort things out and balance my life back out!!

Can you believe it?

I'm posting again.
It's been a long time since I've posted. I did so well right after the new year. Then life got in the way.
I feel like I need something to keep me sane. I have taken on a lot of stuff this year. I'm sure it was too much but I'm not the type to sit around and wait. I'm impatient - I want things to happen right away.
I started my doctoral program for educational administration. I also started a certification program for my principal certification. As part of the doc cohort I take two classes a semester with the same group for two years. I'm also taking my cert classes so that I can become certified as soon as possible. Which means, I am taking 4 classes this semester. I thought it would be tough but I could do it. Obviously I am doing it but it gets to be a little much at times. Only 4 more weeks :) I will never take 4 classes a semester and hold down a more than full time job again!!
Sometimes I get so overwhelmed I just wonder if it is worth it. I know it is but when I am stressed out and have 4 papers due in one week, it makes me think. I have had less time for fun and family as well. Jeff has been great about understanding it and picking up the slack for the most part. Of course, I do freak out from time to time.
It's funny to me now when I listen to people complain about their jobs or their classes. I used to hear people complain about their 2 classes and how that is a full load. (or even 3) I hate it but I have a hard time feeling sorry for anyone now after what I've been through this semester. I can be empathetic still because I know exactly how it feels!
I have so much more to talk about. I will keep this one semi-short. :)