Here goes nothing

So yeah. It's been a year since I've posted anything.
Mainly because I am overwhelmed with actual work and working on my school work. Also because I never know what to write or say.
It's been a rough year. Not as rough as some people have had it but rough for me.
We started back to school in August (as always) and the other counselor was there two days and then got sick. She never came back. I worked as the only counselor in a building of almost 1400 students. Can you say stress? I had all of these ideas I wanted to implement this year and ended up just trying to stay afloat. I'm not sure I did that great of a job, either. Which is frustrating because I hate doing a half-ass job. I know I could have done better had I not been the only counselor there.
Cut to October. Jeff moved out for a month. We have since been to counseling and he is back home and we are doing great. I guess it was the kick in the pants we needed to start working on our relationship instead of just letting it happen. We are both so stubborn! Darn the luck.

Here we are now. Married 3 1/2 years. Been trying for 3 years to have a baby and every month feeling more and more disappointed. So, we went to the fertility doctor back in November. He told us what we would do when we were ready (we weren't quite there yet).

Now it's February. We are ready. We are ready to try and pay to make this baby happen! So I had my first appointment on Tuesday. I now get to take pills (double what I ever took before) and give myself shots for 5 days. Then we go back and check my girly parts to see if it did anything. I'm not sure what happens after that - we've never done it before!

I'm trying to stay positive but not get my hopes up. There is nothing worse than thinking it will happen and then on day 28, it doesn't.

I will have to say, we picked the worst time to start trying. We started TELPAS this week and we have TAKS testing within the next two weeks. On top of that, we have career day coming AND my district wants to run some benchmarks before spring break. PLUS, I have comps for the next week. Comps where I lock myself in my room and do nothing but write on the 8 topics they will be delivering to my inbox tomorrow morning. Comps where I have to pass them in order to proceed to the next part of my education. Comps where if I fail, the past 2 years will have been for nothing.

I haven't had time to start. I haven't had time to prep. I have been at work until 7 or 8 some nights, then the hour to drive home. By the time I get home, I just want to go to bed. All of this testing and I feel like I am still going it alone at work. Mainly because my one and a half counselors have never done it before. I need to train them and explain it all to them but I barely have time to do it myself.

I feel whiny, dizzy, and a little sick to my stomach right now. Of course, I did just take a double dose of clomid and those are the side effects. With my hormones going out of whack, imagine how pleasant I will be this weekend. Good thing I told Jeff to find outside activities so I can focus!

All of this to say, this is what's new. I could use prayers! I need them. Jeff needs them. I hope to keep this updated as we move forward.