Day Two: Nine things about yourself.

Day Two: Nine things about yourself.

1. I can't small talk. I'm too shy and can't think of things to talk about. I hate mingling parties because of it.
2. I love when people ask me to do things. I try everything in my power to accept because I don't want to stop being invited.
3. I doubt myself when I am in class.
4. I am good at my job. I am efficient and fast and I continue looking for ideas to help the kids.
5. I want a baby so bad it sometimes hurts.
6. Anything romantic makes me cry.
7. I gave up Dr.Pepper and caffeine in August and I still crave them.
8. I can't wait to build our own house.
9. I love eating out.
10. I cannot wait for Christmas!

Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.

Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.

I stole this 10 days of blogs from another blogger. I wish I could remember who!!

1. I hate that things changed
2. I miss you
3. I am lucky to have you
4. I'm proud of who you've become
5. When you leave me out, it hurts me
6. Please consider me, I would do a great job
7. Sometimes I don't know how to deal with you
8. I wish we were closer
9. You aren't as great as you think you are
10. I'm so thankful for you

Swing shift

As you know, Jeff works nights. He usually doesn't come home until 2 or 3 in the morning. I don't see him until the weekends. I do realize some people have it worse than this but I miss him. I want to go out to eat with him on a school night. I want to come home after a bad day and get a hug or a back rub.
Well.....
He is moving to swing shift in December!!! I am pretty excited. I worry how it will affect his sleep patterns or what will happen if we have babies, but I love that I will see him more. He will do 2 weeks on days, 2 weeks on mid shift, and 2 weeks on nights. Then he will start over. I can't wait!! 1/3 of our time we will be living a normal routine :) I'm counting down the days.

My feelers

I've talked about my feelings before. I do realize I am more sensitive than others. I take things personally that I probably shouldn't. (sometimes I should!)
I like doing nice things for people. I don't mind not getting recognized for it or anything. What bothers me is when someone does the same thing as me and does get recognized for it and I still don't. That is when it kinda bothers me. It shouldn't. I should still be doing it for non-selfish reasons. Is that the green eyed monster coming out? I'm sure it is. He's been rearing his ugly head a lot more lately.
That's another reason I am working on this blog again. To sort things out and balance my life back out!!

Can you believe it?

I'm posting again.
It's been a long time since I've posted. I did so well right after the new year. Then life got in the way.
I feel like I need something to keep me sane. I have taken on a lot of stuff this year. I'm sure it was too much but I'm not the type to sit around and wait. I'm impatient - I want things to happen right away.
I started my doctoral program for educational administration. I also started a certification program for my principal certification. As part of the doc cohort I take two classes a semester with the same group for two years. I'm also taking my cert classes so that I can become certified as soon as possible. Which means, I am taking 4 classes this semester. I thought it would be tough but I could do it. Obviously I am doing it but it gets to be a little much at times. Only 4 more weeks :) I will never take 4 classes a semester and hold down a more than full time job again!!
Sometimes I get so overwhelmed I just wonder if it is worth it. I know it is but when I am stressed out and have 4 papers due in one week, it makes me think. I have had less time for fun and family as well. Jeff has been great about understanding it and picking up the slack for the most part. Of course, I do freak out from time to time.
It's funny to me now when I listen to people complain about their jobs or their classes. I used to hear people complain about their 2 classes and how that is a full load. (or even 3) I hate it but I have a hard time feeling sorry for anyone now after what I've been through this semester. I can be empathetic still because I know exactly how it feels!
I have so much more to talk about. I will keep this one semi-short. :)

I love this video.

I know our situation is not as bad as some. I do think that we will have to have help to get pregnant as it hasn't happened yet. My heart goes out to everyone else who struggles with IF as well.

Is this thing on?

I realize I haven't posted since May. Holy cow! That's a long time.
I started my classes and barely had time to breathe, much less do anything fun like blogging.
This summer I started and finished the first 2 of my doc classes. Yay. We started back up on the 31st so I'm back to booked until December! I'm a bit nuts and I'm taking 4 classes. Really. And staying at work until 5 or 6 (sometimes 7) each night. Poor pup is being neglected. The only good thing about Jeff working nights is that I am not neglecting him as well.
Speaking of, I HATE that he works nights. This week especially. The first two weeks of school are the worst of the whole year. I feel so behind and can't catch up... pretty much stays like that the whole year. I want someone to rub my head and help me relax when I get home. Poops kisses my face but her nails hurt when she tries to rub my head :) I have missed him a lot this week. I miss him alot right now. Just me and the pup. Occasionally the cat comes around for a back scratch or two.
I was watching Glee (I know, why am I not reading my homework?) and they sang Total Eclipse of the Heart. I cried. It's a sad episode. Poor Rachel and Jessy. Poor Jessy, really. I loved him.
I'm certainly going to try to be better about blogging. I have a lot to stay, just have no idea how to say it or sort it all out.